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I’m now fully committed to 2 a days! Which means cardio in the AM and another cardio or strength training in the PM. Below are my January work out totals. https://pawlisaproject.com/blog/2019/2/4/january-2019-training-totals monthly 0.5 2019-03-01 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5c40c1bef407b45ea10c722a/1549299527637-XKS5GD72RIL6YKEZCKOD/image-asset.jpeg Blog - PAWLISA PROJECT: Training Totals, Jan 2019 This is just the build up to my new base. I’m now fully committed to 2 a days! Which means cardio in the AM and another cardio or strength training in the PM. 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In Stoicism, this concept highlights the idea that one wants nothing to be different, seeking not for things to happen the way you want, but rather to wish that what happens, happens the way it happens. In less than a year my wife and I both lost our fathers. Both were unexpected. Both were too early. Both were sad. In both situations we were with them as they left this earth. We are grateful that we did our best to maintain a relationship with them both all the way in to adulthood. It is easy to drift apart and rarely see your family as you start to build your own life, especially if you move far away. But if people matter to you, you will work on keeping the relationships alive. We visited them both several times a year and not just for holidays. We made the effort to always be there for the important things and sometimes just because we missed them. As a result, on what was just another regular planned visit, it turned out to be the last time we saw them alive. Many lessons there but the most important one is that you never know when the last time you’ll see that person again. Life is too short to be pissed off all the time. Forgive, move on and focus on the positives in life. Don’t dwell on the past and stupid shit that doesn’t matter anymore. What good does it do? Stop blaming your parents for your plight in life. You’re an adult now! They did their best. I encourage you to think back to when you were young and see your childhood through your adult eyes. You’ll see how great you had it and how much of a pain in the ass you actually were. The least we can do is thank them… for raising us, feeding us, keeping us safe, buying us gifts and teaching us. Remember, they did their best. Now we can do our best to let them know, they did a good job. Then honor them by living your best life possible. One that would make them proud in this life and the next. I do wish I had more time with my dad. I wish it every fucking day! I’m grateful for all he did for us and for all the happy memories I will always have. Amor Fati. I’ve accepted reality. This happen the way it happen. So I will learn from it, grow from it and keep his memory alive by becoming the best version of myself! 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We’re making the long drive back to Texas. This song by Alice in Chains is playing on the radio. The lyrics hit me like no other time before in my life. Funny how things can take on a different meanings at different times in your life. Right now I feel way down in a hole and it’s about to get deeper, darker and even harder to climb out of! We spent the week with my mom after the funeral service/ceremony. Then, after we buried our Dad, we celebrated my Mom’s birthday just a few days later. While at her home we went through lot’s of my Dad’s belongings. It’s a strange feeling, to see all the gifts I gave my father over the years and now being offered to take them back. The engraved watch I gave him for being the best man at my wedding. The custom hunting knife I gave him for his birthday. Many different hat’s and t-shirts over the years. Each gift was special and he enjoyed them. Now I will get to enjoy them as well. Then there were some items I always dreamed of owning when I was younger. His hunting and fishing gear! We grew up hunting and my Dad had some beautiful shotguns. I never felt qualified to shoot his Remington Model 1100. It was big and powerful and dead on accurate or maybe it was just him and not the gun? We did call him Dead Eye Dave! He purchased that gun in the 80’s and took great care of it. A trait I inherited from him. I’m deeply honored to take this piece home with me and look forward to channeling my Dad on it’s first hunt with me at the helm. “Down in a hole, feelin' so small Down in a hole, losin' my soul I'd like to fly But my wings have been so denied…” You can not take anything with you when you die. We accumulate so much junk in this life that we think will make us happy or fix all the problems we face. “The less you have the happier you are”. I favorite quote of mine. My dad had just what he needed and few things he wanted. To me that is the balance we must all seek. Needs versus Wants. Once you have your needs met, you can reward yourself with some wants. My dad always told me not to buy anything unless you afford to pay for it with cash. So, like him I must earn my rewards, big or small. When you do that, you appreciate it much more. You value it, take care of it and feel a since of pride and accomplishment knowing you worked hard for it. Nothing given, everything earned. I left behind my dad’s classic 1970’s Model 12 Winchester Shotgun. He saved up his money as young kid and purchased this gun on his own. He wanted it, worked hard and rewarded himself. He took care of it, cleaned it after every hunt and it still shoots perfectly today. It’s very symbolic of my dad’s character and an example of his will, work ethic and appreciation. There’s many “wants” he left behind that are still just as good today as they were 10,20…50 years ago. Something everyone should strive for. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5c40c1bef407b45ea10c722a/8506e7e3-7c29-4fc1-87f6-c822d768a74c/XMAS+RAMS.jpg Lifestyle - The Hero's Journey: DEATH, Part II - Where there is a will… “Merry Fucking Christmas” To quote David Goggins, as it’s fits this part perfectly! My dad spent 5 of 8 days of their visit in the hospital including Christmas Eve and Christmas Day. I was able to break him out of there early on Christmas Morning just in time to get home and watch the Rams blow out the Broncos 51-14! Keep in mind the Rams had a horrible post SuperBowl hangover and only won 4 games all season. So this two Christmas miracles on the same day! This is now one of my favorite Christmas memories. When he returned home to Arizona, it all happens again only a few weeks later. Same symptoms, same ambulance ride, same assumptions, same results. Then once again in February! My dad was fully intubated 3 times in 3 months! It was tourture for him and tourture to witness knowing you can do nothing to help! I fondly recall while being in the ICU in Austin, I was next to his bed trying to keep him calm and relaxed. He hated the tubes down his throat so much so that he repeatedly tried to pull them out with his bare hands! He was successful a few times until they decided to strap his arms to the bed. This time I was there and placed my hand on his head and told him to “…be calm, breath with me dad, relax and don’t think about it. Relax and breath with me dad. You can do this…” As I was talking to him we made eye contact and I could feel his pain. We were connected in spirit as I continued to speak to him with no words, only through the souls. Then a tear formed in his eye and slowly rolled down his cheek as we maintained our connection. He finally relaxed and fell a sleep. That moment was extremely difficult and powerful at the same time. It’s burned in to my memory. I felt everything he was feeling at the moment. My dad and I had that connection and have been able to feel each others emotions from no matter the distance. His doctors were stumped until it was too late. They kept trying to fix the symptom and not the cause. He was diagnosed with a Pneumonia, not the case. Then they said he was anemic, again not the case. Lastly they decided he just needed to take more fucking PILLS! They did their best but ultimately his mechanical valve from three years prior started to fail. “The only one I’ve ever seen fail"…”, says his heart surgeon. His heart, as big and full of love as anyone I’ve ever know simply couldn’t properly pump blood throughout his body anymore. The blood would back up and flow into is lungs and stomach. Hence the misdiagnosed Pneumonia and Anemia. He fought hard till the end but ultimately succumb to heart failure. So Yeah, Merry Fucking Christmas! This holiday meant very little to us this year. A Fighter, a Marine, a Cowboy! My Dad was all the above but most importantly he was a Son, Brother, Husband, Grandfather and our Father. He represented them all very well. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5c40c1bef407b45ea10c722a/d52fd12f-8dc9-41b7-bc49-fc0b3d7da94b/ICU+Austin+Dad.jpg Lifestyle - The Hero's Journey: DEATH, Part II - 3 months of Hell It all started in March of 2020, yup the same week the planet shut down! My dad had a procedure to place a mechanical valve in his heart. Without hesitation, my wife and I flew out to Las Vegas from NYC. We had to be there for him and my mom. Pandemic or not, we made the effort because that is what you do for the people you love and care about! You go out of your way in THEIR time of need. Something many of us have forgotten about in our selfish, pathetic culture of today. I remember they shut down Las Vegas the day after his surgery, the whole city went dark! Imagine Las Vegas “closed”…it was strange for sure. The surgery was a success and we headed home, in first class on an empty plane, no mask, no vax, no fear. Just grateful my father was going to be ok. Fast forward to December 2022. I’m now living in Texas. My parents came out to spend Christmas with us. The moment my dad got off the plane I can see something was not right. He was thin, frail and weak. My mom said they were both recently getting over a cold. We come home, have a great meal and watch a movie. The next day my dad and I go to Home Depot to get supplies for the new home gym I’ve been building out in the garage. We get home and start planning out the project and decide to officially start the next day. Later that night, It’s 1:30am and I hear a knock on my bedroom door. I immediately get up. It’s my mom. “Your dad says he can’t breath.” I see him hunched over on the couch struggling for air. “Dad, you ok, whats wrong?” I ask. “I…can’t …breath…” he says, barely able to get the words out. “You need me to call 911?” I ask. “Yes” he says. I call 911 and in less than 10 min an ambulance shows up. They give him oxygen but it does not seem to help. So they decide to place him on the gurney and rush him to the closest emergency room, which happens to be about 10 min away. The three of us are all just a few minutes behind! His condition got worse during the ambulance ride, which resulted in him needing to be fully intubated. They found fluid built up in his lungs, which was the reason he couldn’t breath. So much so that, it was the same feeling as drowning. They thought it was covid but he tested negative. Plus he already had covid once with minimal symptoms and he recovered just fine. Cold, tired, nervous and afraid, we all sit tucked away in a small room near the ER waiting for some answers. Every time the nurse came out to give us an update it was tense! I’m waiting for her to tell us “he didn’t make it…”. If you’ve ever been in that situation, it’s extremely nerve racking. I finally get to go back and see him. He’s in and out of consciousness, fully intubated and pale as ghost. It’s hard to see my father this way. This is not a time to panic or lose my shit. In these situations you must be calm, collected and focused. This is what good leaders must do in high stress and high pressure situations. I’m providing the hospital staff with as much information and history about his health I can recall. Hoping we can solve this puzzle together. They think it’s covid. Unfortunately that line of thinking was still prevalent. I say that because it’s a bullshit assumption in my fathers case. I had to explain his history to help guide them in the right direction. Treat the cause, not the symptom. He was negative for covid, on every fucking test they gave him! They don’t know what is wrong and decide to transfer him to a larger hospital with a good cardiac unit in Austin. This is the beginning of the hell he went through for the next three months. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5c40c1bef407b45ea10c722a/8f69c68f-38b6-455e-8ef6-f9a0ca209dea/PDP.jpg Lifestyle - The Hero's Journey: DEATH, Part II - Memento Mori Remember that you will die. Easier said than done. I think another way to interpret this ancient Stoic phrase is to remember that They will die! We all know that we will die and our loves one will too but how often do you actually think about your life with them not in it? I’m at the age now where Death is officially part of my life. Most, if not all of us go through life knowing that we, and the people we love will one day die. However, I feel that we are in denial. We pretend it will not actually happen. Think about it. Are you really living like there is no tomorrow? Or are you living as if you will exist for eternity, like a Vampire from True Blood? Imagine having someone you love, the person who you spend nearly everyday with. Your most favorite human being in the world. All the little things you share together. Whether it be a simple as watching TV together, having coffee in the morning or even arguing with each other. Now imagine all of that is suddenly gone. It’s like waking up one day and you’re missing an arm. You took it for granted and now that it’s gone, you realize how much you needed it in your life. Some things can not be replaced. You now have to learn how live your life, again. Where I am struggling with this concept the most is getting other people to see this. Maybe that is not my job? Actually it’s not! I do feel it’s an important topic that needs to be discussed more openly. It will happen to us and everyone we have ever known. We must not live in denial, instead live with a sense of urgency. “There is no tomorrow…”, to quote Apollo Creed in Rocky III. Do that thing you’ve always wanted to do. Visit that place you’ve talked about forever. Try that new hobby you dreamed of. Start working on yourself, today, not tomorrow. Admit you are flawed and can be better. Call that person you’ve been avoiding. Do not waste anymore time because you only have so much of it and we don’t know when your clock is going to suddenly stop! “You are what you do, not what you say you'll do.” -Carl Jung https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5c40c1bef407b45ea10c722a/37d9a5ff-01c8-4a88-895d-8927a095cd5e/IMG_4961.jpeg Lifestyle - The Hero's Journey: DEATH, Part II My brothers, nephew and I with my Dad’s Cowboy pine coffin, post Military Honors. https://pawlisaproject.com/lifestyle/2019/1/29/heros-journey-7h8kb-bbg4x-pxsrs monthly 0.5 2024-01-05 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5c40c1bef407b45ea10c722a/04549567-2106-45e1-ad1f-b1056c4934fc/Resized_20230901_141613.jpg Lifestyle - The Hero's Journey: DEATH, Part I - Permission to Feel There is no customized handbook given to you upon experiencing a tragedy. It’s not like in the movies. In the film Beetlejuice, after the main characters died they received a book called “The Handbook for the Recently Deceased”. In reality there is nothing to help you deal with the hardest and most emotionally difficult times in your life. It is impossible because everyone will feel differently. There are not two emotionally identical people in this world. We have all been shaped by our life experiences and therefore we will all have different reactions to the same devastating life event. Some care more than others while others don’t seem to care at all. Empathy is rare these days. I had to be strong for everyone around me. My family needed me and I made a promise to my Dad to take care of the people he cared about the most. I kept so much of my pain inside. Like a duck on water. On the surface, all looks good and calm. Underneath, the feet are paddling and moving around at manic pace. That was I. My outside appearance was that of a Stoic, calm and cool. Inside, it was like a hurricane, far off shore gaining energy and momentum. As it gets closer to land waiting to destroy everything in its path! Once the dust settled and others were taking care of, I finally gave myself permission to feel. I had to allow myself to experience this emotional rollercoaster. The good, the bad and the ugly, sometimes all at once. This is the part that a lot of people can not understand unless you have experienced it. I would grieve alone. Mostly while working out. I thought this would be the perfect mind/body outlet…and it was. Many times and still till this day, all the emotional pain, anger, sadness and regret would come rushing out of me to the point where I could not tell if my shirt was covered in sweat or tears. This was important as it helped me attempt to rationalize what had happen. To accept the reality of the situation, focus on what I can control and begin to heal. So I slowly started to author my own handbook, literally by journaling. I would highly recommend this to anyone going through anything in life. This daily routine became my own personal therapy session. It awarded me the chance to express all the feelings in a safe environment. I could express all of my emotions without judgement. I would relive each day and dissect it like a scientist in a lab. By doing this I learned how to be a better person. I would look back at each moment throughout the day and find opportunities to improve. Did I say something that was mean? Was my reaction to someones story polite? Should I have responded that way…? Each day I released more pain and I started to feel a little better. Amor Fati (Love of Fate) became my mindset. “Making the best out of anything that happens: Treating each and every moment—no matter how challenging—as something to be embraced, not avoided.” https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5c40c1bef407b45ea10c722a/82a3e63d-6c92-4547-9451-646b2ce2917c/IMG_2811+2.JPG Lifestyle - The Hero's Journey: DEATH, Part I - The Stage is set… They say there are 5 stages to grief: Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression, Acceptance. I definitely experienced most of these 5, plus a few more. It will not always go in that order. For me Anger was first! I was angry that I could not have done more. I was angry with the doctors who didn’t diagnose his condition sooner. I was angry at the lack of compassion from some family members. I was angry at everything! This led to a more powerful emotion that I feel is not talked about enough and that is Guilt. It can possibly be looped in with Bargaining because I felt guilty for not doing more, not getting more involved sooner. For months I educated myself about the human heart, looking for a breakthrough solution to my dad’s condition. Acceptance happened right away for me. I accepted the reality of it all as it was happening. I was so involved in every step along the way that I was processing everything as it unfolded. So when the news was delivered to me, I was fully prepared, or so I thought. However as time has passed, nearly every day I would subconsciously forget what happen. My first reaction when I have good news is to call my dad. That instinct still lingers. I never experienced Denial. The closest I got was struggling to say it out loud or write in a text. I feel many people in my family are still in denial. Some have yet to even acknowledge what has happen. This leads me back to more anger, like a merry-go-round. At any moment I would be hit with an emotional sledgehammer to the chest. I wave of pain, sadness, fear, guilt and anger would overwhelm me out of no where and toss me around, over and over. Like a surfer wiping-out on a giant wave! I would come up for air, only to be smashed down again and dragged down deeper and deeper into the… Depression. I can honestly admit that I have now truly experienced this for the first time in my life. It wants to fight with me everyday, attempting to rule my thoughts, my life. But I refuse to lay down and give up. Like anything else that is in front of me, I will take it head on! Like the Bison, I will charge into the storm. This emotion, this feeling is like nothing I have experienced before. It’s very powerful and if not checked, can destroy you. We fight daily and I am getting really tired. It likes to sucker punch you right as you’re getting comfortable again. How do defeat an enemy you can’t see and has all the advantages over you? To be continued… https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5c40c1bef407b45ea10c722a/88bdf904-e3a6-4c95-9ade-fa49520c627d/IMG_4002.jpeg Lifestyle - The Hero's Journey: DEATH, Part I - A Boys Life Dave was born in Centralia, IL in 1952. Later he moved to Southern California when he was around 10 years old…but first, let’s take a second to admire that mustache…ok. The eldest of 4 children and one of three boys. My family has a lot of boys in it. Starting with my Grandfather who had 1 brother. He went on to have 4 children, 3 of them boys. Next was my Dad, with 3 sons. Then my older brother had 3 sons (his oldest has a son) and my younger brother also has a son. So it’s no shocker that we grew up rough and tough! You had to in our family. Dave knew how to live! He grew up hunting, fishing, camping and exploring the outdoors. A lost form of entertainment these days and a return to our ancestral roots! He handed down those same skills and activities to all of his boys, including many of our friends who also got to experience my Dad and our lifestyle. Those friends now share the same experiences with their boys! As a child you live in the moment, having plenty of fun without worry. Many of us lost that ability to be present, without anxiety. My dad was great at being present and having fun with his boys! I know he carried a lot of stress, being the head of the household and family. He did a great job of hiding it when we were out having fun, never letting his stress impact us. I recognize this more as an adult. He wasn’t perfect and we got yelled at for a lot of dumb shit we did but in hindsight, it was all justified. We were some wild and crazy kids, doing a lot of stupid things that created a lot of unnecessary stress in our parent’s life. I can say this now looking back as an adult and experiencing my own stressful life. Except my Dad had a 3 boys, who ate more in food each week than he probably brought home in pay! This, in addition to all of the expenses the typical American family has. My respect and appreciation for all that he did for us has only grown as I have grown. He did all of this with one income, often working 7 days a week so that we had a better life than he did. When he did have time off, it was spent going to “The River” (Colorado River, CA/AZ border). We spent our summers there, fishing hunting, riding ATV’s & jet skis, boating and just having good old fashion outdoors fun! These were our vacations and we loved it. Out there in the hot, sandy desert we learned a lot about life. How to provide for ourselves. How to drive a truck and launch a boat. Our dad taught us how to repair and maintain a house. How to plan and be prepared for anything. These trips helped transformed us from boys to men. Something you can not get going to Disneyland all summer! https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5c40c1bef407b45ea10c722a/03e627c8-c992-465b-acf6-1fb6e3c25673/IMG_3863.jpeg Lifestyle - The Hero's Journey: DEATH, Part I - “Greg, I need you to make me a promise before I die…” I never imagined I’d be hearing those words. It’s 9:30pm, it’s cold, snowing and I just got back to my hotel room. I’m in Madison, WI on a business trip when I receive a phone call from my Dad. He never calls me this late so I know it’s important. He is calling me from his hospital bed in Las Vegas. This is his third ICU visit in the less than 3 months. His tone is very somber and soft. He’s very calm but there is a hint of sadness and fatigue. This is to be expected since he was fully intubated three times in the last 3 months! We get to talking about his latest health findings and treatment options from all of the different doctors he’s been seeing. Tomorrow will be his 2nd heart surgery. This one is to implant two new stints. Three years ago, in March of 2020 (Yup, the day before they locked down the world!) he had Transcatheter aortic valve replacement (TAVR) is a procedure to replace an aortic valve that is narrowed and doesn't open fully. I naturally try to lift his spirits and project positivity about his health. It’s not working, yet. He then goes on to tell me that he’s not sure that he’s going to make it and that all of this is becoming very hard on him and my Mom. My Dad takes over the conversation and says to me. “Greg, if I don’t make it, don’t leave me here in Vegas…” I chuckle and say, “of course Dad, I wont leave you in Vegas.” The next words he says to me will forever be burned into my heart, mind and soul. “Greg, listen…I need you to make me a promise. If I don’t make it, I need you to promise me that you’ll take care of your mother. It will be very hard on her and I need you to promise me that you’ll take care of her…” FUCK! We are here, this is really happening. My answer was easy but that was very hard to hear and it forever changed me as a man. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5c40c1bef407b45ea10c722a/1688845283514-3RL5XGSDT5PU1UUALHHC/Dad+VW.jpg Lifestyle - The Hero's Journey: DEATH, Part I https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5c40c1bef407b45ea10c722a/1683932125340-AI2YLN90VU0ND4CJ1CYI/IMG_3952.JPG Lifestyle - The Hero's Journey: DEATH, Part I https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5c40c1bef407b45ea10c722a/1688845005101-R6BTIKF1H9X3669HZEMU/IMG_1923+2.JPG Lifestyle - The Hero's Journey: DEATH, Part I https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5c40c1bef407b45ea10c722a/1683932202845-0RAS35AY7CQO40XF5S4K/IMG_3940.JPG Lifestyle - The Hero's Journey: DEATH, Part I https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5c40c1bef407b45ea10c722a/1683932202948-BZKI26BZYIWHDRI28HL8/IMG_3935.JPG Lifestyle - The Hero's Journey: DEATH, Part I https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5c40c1bef407b45ea10c722a/1688845283608-2FGRVFX5K3A2AF8O08TL/Young+Dad.jpg Lifestyle - The Hero's Journey: DEATH, Part I https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5c40c1bef407b45ea10c722a/1687994746006-97BFXL2DV5996Z25Q25V/IMG_3039.JPG Lifestyle - The Hero's Journey: DEATH, Part I https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5c40c1bef407b45ea10c722a/1688845770924-K1WKSWWL7QJ5UZU4HR10/Stoggies.jpg Lifestyle - The Hero's Journey: DEATH, Part I https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5c40c1bef407b45ea10c722a/1693603504773-P35RIBRUM885TKTBNJOU/Resized_20230901_141941.JPEG Lifestyle - The Hero's Journey: DEATH, Part I https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5c40c1bef407b45ea10c722a/1695591238821-ELI3RS246NF14OF03FON/162C1A30-.JPG Lifestyle - The Hero's Journey: DEATH, Part I https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5c40c1bef407b45ea10c722a/1695591297684-1KWNCJYLGOR0YVNYZ1WB/IMG_0733.JPG Lifestyle - The Hero's Journey: DEATH, Part I https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5c40c1bef407b45ea10c722a/d4e661d6-8aab-455a-a98e-cda317b30816/IMG_1387.JPEG Lifestyle - The Hero's Journey: DEATH, Part I - PAWLISA (Pronounced Pa-Li-Sa, like Melisa, but with a P) It’s our family name that he represented well. It’s unique and special. If you have it, know where it came from and honor it! I’m at my parents house writing this as we’re looking through old photos and its mostly all of us hunting, fishing and camping…with the boys. I’m grateful to have grown up the way I did. Having two loving parents, playing outside most of the time, shooting guns, fishing, hunting and getting dirty with my buddy’s. Not much has changed except now we’re the adults and to be honest I think it’s even more fun now! Dave worked his ass off to provide the best life possible for his family. Also so that he can live the life he wanted. One of adventure, excitement, challenges, fun and family! He always put his family first despite it often being a one-way street. You could count on Dave when ever you needed help. He could hold a grudge but would let it go if a close friend or family member ever needed help. I respect that because he taught me that blood and family means something. A Marine who served during the Vietnam War. Dave volunteered instead of waiting to be drafted. He got a taste of the military life and like most veterans he continued to live the Marine Corp ethos long after being honorably discharged. He was extremely proud to be a Marine as am I, the son of one! As a result we watched nothing but military and western movies growing up. Classics like “Platoon”, “Full Metal Jacket”, “Heartbreak Ridge”…with the perfect Clint Eastwood segue into, “The Good, The Bad, The Ugly”, “Pale Rider”, “The Outlaw Josey Wales”, “Unforgiving” and “Tombstone”. to name a few. Dave loved these films. We could watch them over and over again and we did, even till this day. I have fond memories watching these movies with my Dad. That is the magic of films. In an instant I can be transported back to a different time in my life and relive a memory with my Dad at anytime. For that reason, movies are very important to me. https://pawlisaproject.com/lifestyle/2019/1/29/heros-journey-7h8kb monthly 0.5 2023-03-29 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5c40c1bef407b45ea10c722a/1558642270114-B2FZ2EEZJGZ7UUM9XB5F/944287_4962081534057_2046811285_n.jpg Lifestyle - The Hero's Journey: FAILURE Part III Nov, 2011, My crew, pre-wedding day. Mike 2nd from the right. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5c40c1bef407b45ea10c722a/1588342022777-83F6FX6DQ9X42L7BEM5M/IMG_1419.JPG Lifestyle - The Hero's Journey: FAILURE Part III - I’ve had a strange week…now I know why. It’s the 7 year anniversary of my best friend's death today. The whole week I’ve been feeling this very strange energy as if something or someone is poking at my brain, trying to tell me to pay attention. I’ve been having a lot of old memories of Mike burst into my thoughts all week. I find myself looking at old pics and emails. With all that is currently going on in the world it’s easy to get distracted and unfocused. Then it hit me, Mike died 7 years ago this Friday! Call it a deep wound that flares up in times or stress, call it an unexplained emotional connection to the divine, or a spirit guide reminded you of what you’ve been through and to keep moving forward. I think it’s our souls communicating in a different realm reminiscing and getting me to remember, but why? https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5c40c1bef407b45ea10c722a/1588362372373-9TIZ4RSQ4E4UCL2KBM2Y/IMG_2237.jpg Lifestyle - The Hero's Journey: FAILURE Part III - Then there was a sign… Upon arriving in Scotland, my buddy Nik and I had an event to attend at an old Scottish Castle. I’ve never seen one in person and was excited to explore this ancient place. We toured the castle and I was fascinated by the history and thought of all the people who lived and fought to keep this structure standing all these years. Nik, who’s born and raised in London, was not impressed, he’s grown up around this stuff but for me I was thinking about movies like Braveheart where people fought and died for freedom! I was in awe of history within these stone walls. We walk into the courtyard and suddenly a large group of Scottish Bagpipers come out playing music. The drums and bagpipes are roaring, then suddenly they break into a song I know, its Amazing Grace! I was able to capture the moment on film. It was like a sign from Mike himself, that he was ok and I will be too. It was truly a transcending experience that I will never forget. (https://www.facebook.com/gpawlisa/videos/vb.1359654811/4948979206507/?type=2&video_source=user_video_tab) At this moment I moved on. Later I casually mentioned to Nik about what happened and he was shocked. “You’re so calm and normal…”. I said, I have to. We discussed the details a bit and then life went on. I will always remember that day, that time my life got flipped upside down and I was all alone. That is usually the case, you’re alone when shit hits the fan. It’s up to you to deal with it and figure a way out of it. When you do this you will be ready for anything. *To the left is my tattoo I got after Mike passed, his initials are in the building (MN) https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5c40c1bef407b45ea10c722a/1588341438973-A59P35TOMFJ8IPMHS7OU/ADC12D46-B4C3-49DD-A979-2628BFA942A8.jpg Lifestyle - The Hero's Journey: FAILURE Part III - Memento Mori One reason can be the latin phrase Memento Mori, which translates as “remember that you will die”. Don’t take this as a threat or a negative phrase. It’s the contrary in fact. This is to remind you that life is short and that it can end in a second. Therefore you should be living it to its fullest. Finding your purpose and truly living a happy and fulfilling life. Not full of material items but full of experiences, relationships and Love. I got this tattoo on my forearm not too long after Mike’s passing. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5c40c1bef407b45ea10c722a/1588342835986-ORDF6QYD34B1J9ADAP8S/mike+muscle+photo.jpg Lifestyle - The Hero's Journey: FAILURE Part III - I’ve never celebrated his Memory That changes today! I’ve never been one of those people who honored traditions, celebrated birthdays, anniversaries, etc…I’ve often accepted the day as just another day. I think in some cases this can be a powerful trait. Maybe in another case I am afraid to hold myself to that level of commitment. If I don’t remember one year am I a bad person? No, it means you have processed that feeling or emotion and continued on with life. That’s not to say it’s bad to honor these milestones. My wife and I celebrate our anniversary but one year we were apart for work reasons. It didn’t make it less special. We simply celebrated it as soon as we were both together again. But today I am going to remember Mike because I want to. I’m going to share my story in hopes that It helps one other person. I’m going to share a little more details about the days following his death and how I dealt with it and how it has shaped me today. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5c40c1bef407b45ea10c722a/1588361627204-F2F79FOC80XPCP1G94OZ/image-asset.jpeg Lifestyle - The Hero's Journey: FAILURE Part III - A stoic response to a tragedy. There is a song called “Lonely Day” by a great band called System Of A Down. After I heard of Mikes passing I was all alone in the UK. No family or friends around, just strangers. It was probably the best thing for me at the time. I played that song over and over because I truly felt it was the loneliest day of my life, It was also the hardest and saddest day for me ever! I worked out right afterwards, went to a local mall and got some dinner. I wandered around for hours, hoping I was going to wake up from a bad dream. Afterwards I was trying to convince myself that he faked his death and one day down the road he would contact me. Still has yet to happen… I went back to my hotel room and got prepared to travel to Scotland for a meeting. I was with a business partner/friend Nik for the next 2-3 days. Work still needed to get done so I had to pull myself together and keep moving as if life was all right! I didn’t say anything to him and he had no idea that I was in so much pain inside. This was for me to bear and not to put on others. As a leader you must always be in control of your emotions. You can not let others who look to you for guidance down. You are to inspire and lead, always. To be Stoic means a person who can endure pain or hardship without showing their feelings or complaining. Sometimes you have to do this…this is powerful! https://pawlisaproject.com/lifestyle/2019/6/27/ive-become-a-biking-asshole monthly 0.5 2019-07-03 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5c40c1bef407b45ea10c722a/1562099197628-R3ULW0XT36N9W8T3G40A/image-asset.jpeg Lifestyle - I've become a Cycling Asshole! https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5c40c1bef407b45ea10c722a/1562179714125-P1NSAFEOH79WXCULJNN1/IMG_5398.JPG Lifestyle - I've become a Cycling Asshole! https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5c40c1bef407b45ea10c722a/1562099507410-YH5D00342VSIVLGWP5JU/image-asset.jpeg Lifestyle - I've become a Cycling Asshole! https://pawlisaproject.com/lifestyle/2019/3/7/the-heros-journey-conviction monthly 0.5 2020-05-31 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5c40c1bef407b45ea10c722a/1555601284893-9JF9RKUSRA2L36RIKCP2/Screen+Shot+2019-04-18+at+8.24.02+AM.png Lifestyle - The Hero's Journey: Conviction Bruce Lee with his Wife Linda and their two children, Brandon Lee and Shannon Lee. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5c40c1bef407b45ea10c722a/1555601673904-WFUC4KAPSRG3SF9S9WFL/image-asset.jpeg Lifestyle - The Hero's Journey: Conviction https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5c40c1bef407b45ea10c722a/1555603082438-2V1C8I50673LJH65LB1V/IMG_6028.JPG Lifestyle - The Hero's Journey: Conviction Me along side my best friend Thanh aka “China”, Quail Hunting, 2017 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5c40c1bef407b45ea10c722a/1555602129771-1TQGM3PT9PSX7R5CPK9O/image-asset.jpeg Lifestyle - The Hero's Journey: Conviction https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5c40c1bef407b45ea10c722a/1555601887130-PDPE50HHTDOD20NERDCT/image-asset.jpeg Lifestyle - The Hero's Journey: Conviction https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5c40c1bef407b45ea10c722a/1555602395316-BC7432XOX86ZY7B1Y0PU/image-asset.jpeg Lifestyle - The Hero's Journey: Conviction https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5c40c1bef407b45ea10c722a/1555604157708-O8F7CL8NFVTAUW42D31R/Screen+Shot+2019-04-18+at+9.14.04+AM.png Lifestyle - The Hero's Journey: Conviction https://pawlisaproject.com/lifestyle/2019/2/27the-heros-journey-risk monthly 0.5 2019-03-12 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5c40c1bef407b45ea10c722a/1551247075513-T7UQSWOK8S8K8F82TOYZ/image-asset.jpeg Lifestyle - The Hero's Journey: RISK https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5c40c1bef407b45ea10c722a/1551247348770-KEMQM07YIXYFUYJ016ZB/image-asset.jpeg Lifestyle - The Hero's Journey: RISK https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5c40c1bef407b45ea10c722a/1551204503617-THWVRFNLTGTMSLFFK59K/image-asset.jpeg Lifestyle - The Hero's Journey: RISK https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5c40c1bef407b45ea10c722a/1551292709355-TPVIM42HLVTN243O873Z/image-asset.jpeg Lifestyle - The Hero's Journey: RISK https://pawlisaproject.com/lifestyle/2019/2/20/the-heros-journey-faith monthly 0.5 2019-03-12 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5c40c1bef407b45ea10c722a/1550667409749-YU0SZO47VAWOA52B1QVT/image-asset.jpeg Lifestyle - The Hero's Journey: FAITH https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5c40c1bef407b45ea10c722a/1550667593980-25ZXT6YDCE2SLLDU5ZUL/image-asset.jpeg Lifestyle - The Hero's Journey: FAITH - My younger brother and I are sitting at a table with a very large, tasty looking turkey in front of us, just waiting to be destroyed. The smell off freshly roasted turkey instantly makes my mouth water like a pavlovian responses, uncontrollably salivating in anticipation. My wife at my side, smiling and feeling such joy and love. We get ready to dig into this delicious looking bird. Family surrounds us. You can feel pure love and faith in the room. Then we all put on our plastic gloves and start to rip all the meat off the bones. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5c40c1bef407b45ea10c722a/1550667736530-T3Y9QQGW0CMZL6W622Y2/image-asset.jpeg Lifestyle - The Hero's Journey: FAITH https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5c40c1bef407b45ea10c722a/1550684301016-NR1IK5T66ARG8INNXU4T/IMG_6099.JPG Lifestyle - The Hero's Journey: FAITH https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5c40c1bef407b45ea10c722a/1550667827287-69P2TCGBRCHCZ4ILDBPV/image-asset.png Lifestyle - The Hero's Journey: FAITH https://pawlisaproject.com/lifestyle/2019/2/7/the-heros-journey-love monthly 0.5 2019-03-12 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5c40c1bef407b45ea10c722a/1549902563522-EL86RB16HB6E215BCZ35/image-asset.jpeg Lifestyle - The Hero's Journey: LOVE https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5c40c1bef407b45ea10c722a/1549902440872-74O5A4NPQDU2SWZJ7X7R/image-asset.jpeg Lifestyle - The Hero's Journey: LOVE https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5c40c1bef407b45ea10c722a/1549570403434-JW3MNGFNOFO9X6XERADZ/image-asset.jpeg Lifestyle - The Hero's Journey: LOVE https://pawlisaproject.com/lifestyle/2019/2/6/the-heros-journey-fear monthly 0.5 2019-03-12 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5c40c1bef407b45ea10c722a/1549485870809-WQQH1PAC8QY57235NBTZ/image-asset.jpeg Lifestyle - The Hero's Journey: FEAR https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5c40c1bef407b45ea10c722a/1549485036915-99A2Q3YF4V0WJVXZ3U34/image-asset.jpeg Lifestyle - The Hero's Journey: FEAR https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5c40c1bef407b45ea10c722a/1549486130533-K8O39C8PE80KPVDHWN3H/image-asset.jpeg Lifestyle - The Hero's Journey: FEAR https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5c40c1bef407b45ea10c722a/1549485787287-J5P9TKXYKFYE0JYLHD1T/image-asset.jpeg Lifestyle - The Hero's Journey: FEAR https://pawlisaproject.com/lifestyle/2019/1/29/heros-journey monthly 0.5 2020-05-01 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5c40c1bef407b45ea10c722a/1548885600368-K4FIAADXQVWRXQ2JNHEF/image-asset.jpeg Lifestyle - The Hero's Journey: FAILURE That was my first encounter with Mike Nichols, who soon after became my friend, my confidant, my advisor, my mentor and later my groomsman. It’s funny how one apparent random coincidence can turn into a life-changing meeting. Mike and I were like peas and carrots over the next 4 years. He was an entrepreneur, inventor, investor, and all-around awesome person. He was older than me but it was if we grew up together. We just hit it off from the begging and starting to hang out all the time. We like the same stupid movies, jokes and even shared the same strange affinity for diet and exercise. Mike taught me about investing and business ownership. He taught me about taking a risk and being patient. We shared everything, from family struggles, love life, past and present relationships, personal failures and successes and most importantly we were honest with each other. I called him out on his shit and he did the same for me. He was in love with an amazing woman. I was single and having fun. He would advise me on the women I would date and eventually I met a great one! She was a local girl. We could finally double date. The only problem was, this local girl lived in NYC. We dated cross-country and every two weeks she would visit and we could all go out on a double date. Mike was my companion when she was gone. He was still my partner in crime and kept me company in between visits. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5c40c1bef407b45ea10c722a/1548884841768-0I6WN98X6XNQBP2NUBLZ/image-asset.jpeg Lifestyle - The Hero's Journey: FAILURE - I just finished a long day of work. I’m in London, England and just completed a three-hour drive with my friend and colleague from Manchester, England. It was a successful work week. I’ve been away from home for over a week this time. I live in NYC. I’ve been away from my native home, CA for nearly three years. California is where all my friends and family reside. I visit often but not often enough. I only have two more days left on this trip and then it’s back to NYC. Since I moved to NYC it has been hard to find good friends. I guess as we get older, that’s just how it goes. It takes time to develop that level of trust and respect in another human being. I always found myself gravitating towards older friends. I found it easier to relate to people who are 10-20 years my elder. Not sure why this is but I always got along with my seniors. After my divorce, I moved into the “Melrose Place” of the Orange County, CA. Pools, beautiful people and parties every weekend, all weekend! I’ve been in my new home for about a week and my brand new storage unit was vandalized. Some asshole thieves stole my tools and my fishing pole! I just moved in and bought a new flat screen TV. I go to fetch my tools only to find out that they have been stolen *(I’m shedding tears while writing this as memories are flooding my mind). There I stand in shock, “Fuck! They took my shit!”A large man approaches me. “Damn, they got you,” he says. “Yup, they even took my fishing pole!” I replied, “and I needed my drill to mount my TV”. He replies, “You can use mine. I’m in 4R, just bring it up when you’re done.” Cool, nice guy, I thought to myself. He’s a large dude…in fact, he’s a massive dude, a bodybuilder. Did he steal my shit? I thought to myself. “Thanks, man, I’ll bring it right up once I’m done.” https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5c40c1bef407b45ea10c722a/1548954557065-VSBXXI7840QKS3HMR98F/image-asset.jpeg Lifestyle - The Hero's Journey: FAILURE - When Mike passed away there was a silver lining. I became close with his sister, brother-in-law and their children. Our new restaurant is literally one mile from their house. They say it’s something Mike would have done. They see a lot of Mike in me. I see a lot of Mike in them. When I thought I failed him, I did all I could to help others in my life. I pay more attention to people who are in pain or who express any type of hurt. It can take just one kind gesture or even a smile to alter someone’s negative thought that day which can alter the rest of his or her life. I may not have failed Mike but I responded as if I did because I loved him and don’t’ want anyone to feel what he felt in that final moment. I’m reading more emails and reminiscing. What a great friend. He helped me to get to where I am right now! Sometimes failure leads to your greatest successes. If I failed Mike then I have many more people to help and make successful. Mike, I thank you for your friendship, your love, your wisdom, your support, your friendship, your success, and your failures. I’ll take our failing friendship over a lifetime of bullshit, phony friendships any day. You’re my Brother in this life and the next. See you again, Chaka! https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5c40c1bef407b45ea10c722a/1558642270114-B2FZ2EEZJGZ7UUM9XB5F/944287_4962081534057_2046811285_n.jpg Lifestyle - The Hero's Journey: FAILURE Nov, 2011, My crew, pre-wedding day. Mike 2nd from the right. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5c40c1bef407b45ea10c722a/1548955871026-UPZ6THR7WT0JDJ10JYEC/edited.jpg Lifestyle - The Hero's Journey: FAILURE I’m in my hotel in London, England. I haven’t seen Mike for a few months but I’m planning a trip to CA soon to visit. We haven’t spoken in a while so when I got an email from him I was excited. It read, From Mike Nichols: “Greg, I am Mike’s sister. I need you to contact me ASAP regarding Mike.” I’m panicking and reply “is everything ok with Mike? I’ll try to call you ASAP.” How do you prepare for the worst day of your life? How do handle your biggest failure? I make the call. “What happened to Mike?” I asked. “Greg, Mike took his own life.” I have failed him I thought. If I was there, If I didn’t move, If I didn’t…”What, what happened, how?” I can barely speak. My body nearly shuts down. I have to hang up. This cannot be real. This is a dream. Only it wasn’t. I failed my best friend. If I were home, this would not happen. These feelings I lived with this for a long time. Even to this day, four years later I still feel that I failed him a little bit. Presently, I’m reading through old emails from Mike. Reliving old memories. Old jokes about “chorizo tacos”, Christmas party plans, financial advice, government issues. Everyone in my family loved Mike. He was an amazing human. How could I have not seen this? How could I have let him down? I carried this failure for a long time. I think about my life since he passed and wonder what it would be like if he was here. I’ve invested in many stocks. Opened new businesses and made a major job change. I opened a new restaurant right in his former hometown. 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